Weekends...

fri went pick xbd up, then went MH to drink and chill. then after drinking go off le. then sat went to shop and dine at amk hub. then afterwhich went to vivo to catch Transformer... i know it might sound weird but i seriously know nothing more abt transformer other than things that can change into robots. anyways that show is totally cool and i enjoyed it. then after the show around 2+ go home le. sun stayed at home till 4+. then went to meet tong for dinner. sam came to join us a lil later to walk around jurong point. in the end we all go over to sam's place to play nintendo Wii. so fun -.-v. steve came over to join us for a crazy night of laughter. then 1+ go home le...
maybe i shld stop addressing her as my xbd anymore le. i shall change back to A nx post on. maybe i wont even have a chance to include her in my blog anymore. things have changed. its not like before... ppl do shit and i get the shit. ppl make trouble and i got the blame. wat is this world coming to? hahaha. same i m dumb and stupid but i am still waiting. after going thru so much thick and thin together and i got myself into this... but i m still waiting... haha. again, no sms no replies no call. another day like this. i dun stand anywhere i guess. new ppl, new love. i m just the stupid guy who thinks he was still loved. hahaha. y i wanted to end my suffering so much yet a lil sentence she say i just give in? y i will comply when she is not even treating me the way she said she will? there is no doubt a lot of qns marks hanging in my head. i think of that i get headaches, i dun think of that i got heartbreak. her closest and dearest people around her are asking me to let go. tell me its not worth it. but i cant put their words into my heart. go in one ear come out one ear. the way she talk to me... seems like she dun wanna leave me. just that she is not ready. but the action she is doing. she seems to be enjoying herself. but 1 thing for sure. i wont breakdown. this is the first time i m having heartache. she is the onli person in this world that can give me this feeling. i wanna think optimistically but i m not blind... the things i see dun seem as optimistic. she might just leave me for good. she might just come back to me and ask me to marry her. all this are "maybes". i dun have any confidence to talk abt anything now. nothing i have seen is showing me that. maybe i shld open up myself and start loving someone who love me more. or maybe i shld just stop loving anyone coz love isnt wat makes the world go round.
i dun wanna forget this... i wanna recover onli if she is the remedy to my sorrow..............